Finals Are Over!

So finals are finally over and I think that the person who is most excited about this is me...and I didn't even take any! You'd think it'd be Allan since he is the person who had to take them, but no, I'm pretty sure I'm more excited. I love having him home! I love having someone to come home to after work. Oh ya, I'm working again. I have completely eliminated gluten from my diet, well, almost completely (I have some exceptions that are worth getting sick for) and am starting to feel better. It's wonderful! So yay for finals being over and getting my husband back!

Human Stupidity

I saw this picture on the inside of my storage bin. I thought it was so hysterically funny that I took a picture. What's sad about it is that I'm sure the company put it on there because they had someone stupid enough to actually try that. If anyone knows of any other stupid warning labels, please feel free to share. My favorite besides this one was on a baby stroller. "Warning: Remove baby before folding." The stupidity of the human race never ceases to amaze me.

Wasted (No, not alcoholically)

I can't sleep at all because I feel so sick so I decided to blog. I was really good today and didn't have any gluten at all, but am still feeling awful. Luckily, my work is letting me work from home in the morning & I only have to go in the office in the afternoon. Unfortunately, I'm struggling with the getting into work part. At least I'm still getting a little bit done from home.

Tonight I took a shower and after shampooing my hair, I was so utterly exhausted I had to get Allan to help me finish by putting the conditioner in my hair & rinsing it out for me. I just couldn't do it myself. *sigh* I can't wait to start feeling better. Hopefully it'll be soon. And Allan is the most awesome person in the world. (Last sentence dictated by Allan himself as I was writing the blog. :))

Diagnosis Feelings (Ranting & Raving)

WARNING: this is me ranting & raving. I think that if I get it out of my system I'll feel better. I'm hoping. So really you don't have to read it. I'll probably even delete it later, but for now, I need to get it out.

For the past two months, I've been really sick. I've been nauseous every single day & have no energy whatsoever. After putting up with it for so long, I went to the doctor. She thought it was diabetic gastroparesis but after going to a specialist & having an endoscopy, I was diagnosed with Celiac Disease. The doctor told me it's very common among type 1 diabetics. I've had diabetes for 14 years & never heard that once. I asked if I just developed it in the last two months & he told me that I've actually had it for years, it just made itself manifest in the last two months.

I am so incredibly angry about this. I'm angry with God. I feel like he lied to me. In blessings I've been told that if I took care of myself, God would do the rest & I could live a long, healthy life. Well, I'm in the best control I've ever been in. My last A1c was 6.9! A Dr couldn't ask for better than that! And after I get in such great control, I get this! Don't I have enough health problems to deal with already?! Good grief! I've got diabetes, scoliosis that causes severe back spasms and then all the shoulder, hip & knee pain that can't be diagnosed. I never feel good as is. There are bad days & not-so-bad days, but never good days. Plus, I'm an extremely picky eater. Now over 50% of my diet has to be eliminated. I'm so angry that I just cry. I can't believe how much I've cried in the last 2 days. Ya, way to keep up your end of the deal, God. NOT!

I know that I shouldn't be angry. I should be grateful that although it's a chronic disease, it can be controlled. At least I don't have cancer. But I just can't come to terms with it yet. I'm so angry & somewhat depressed. I don't want to eat at all anymore. Everything I think of, I can't have anymore. I'm sitting around & wallowing in self-pity. Pathetic. 

Since my diagnosis, the only time I've felt ok is when visiting my grandpa in the hospital. He had a stroke last weekend. It was so nice to think of someone else & not myself. When I'm alone or working, all I can think about is myself & this stupid diagnosis. I really need to start school again so I can become a nurse. I think it would be so good for me. I'd be able to focus on those who are far less fortunate than I am & then not feel so bad for myself. I'm going to start classes in January, I think. I hope.

On a brighter note, I have the best husband in the world! After I was diagnosed, Allan made me a dinner of fettuccini alfredo. I really love pasta & was sad I couldn't have it anymore. He went to the store & got gluten-free noodles & bread to show me that I can still have good food. (The noodles were disgusting, but it's the thought that counts.) I thought it was the sweetest thing ever. He has also since cleaned out our cupboards of everything containing wheat. They are pretty bare. But he did it so I wouldn't be tempted & he has decided to do the new diet with me even though he doesn't have to so that it'll be easier for me. Could I ask for a better husband?

Crappy day

So today was really crappy for us, well more for Lexi.  She just found out that she has Celiac.  That's a chronic disease that makes it so you can't eat gluten.  Gluten is found in basically any type of grains, such as wheat and oats. That means she can't have bread, cereal, pasta,... etc.  I feel like a complete jerk because I have just this week until finals and I have so much to do that I feel like I'm ignoring her, and when she most needs me :(.  I love her so much and pray that she and I will be able to adjust to her new diet well.  If you read this please remember her in your prayers.  If you don't pray, start.

Thanksgiving

For Thanksgiving this year, Allan and I started off by going to the annual Turkey Bowl. I was so excited for it. It's a bunch of friends (led by Sky & Brandon) playing football. And it is serious business. This year, they made Turkey Bowl 2008 shirts. There were so many people, they ended up getting two games going. I wanted to play so badly but just couldn't. I was way too sick. Allan played though & had a great catch before someone took out his knee. He's still pretty sore from it and has a nice bruise to prove it. I can't wait to see the highlight film.

After the Turkey Bowl we went to my aunt Corinne's house for Thanksgiving dinner. It was absolutely delicious! There were all the traditional Thanksgiving foods & my aunt's AMAZING homemade rolls. Allan was especially excited about those. We then played games & watched the newer version of Miracle on 34th Street.

I'm so grateful for Thanksgiving. I'm sad that it's getting lost in all the commercialism of Christmas. How wonderful it is to have a day set aside to give thanks for all that we have. While the article that the link leads to is just a bit long, I ask you to read it. It is so worth it! It's amazing. Lincoln is my favorite president. After reading that, I respect him even more. I love how religious he is. I mean, this country was built on religion! And I'm thankful for it! :)